MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS

My ten new year resolutions:-

1. I try out for a professional football club
2. I conquer Sarpass
3. I become stronger and run faster
4. I play the Electric Guitar
5. I start earning
6. I go on a road trip
7. I score well in my exams
8. I learn Spanish
9. I learn painting
10. I dance salsa and jive

This aint much but the ten most worthwhile goals i can set for myself for 2009.........2009 here i come........hehehehehe...........

Dated-December 04

Damn tired..........just came home from class....its really buggin me.....being this busy....i mean i enjoying it.....the idea of being busy but i guess my body is not used to it. i am so used to seeing everyone slog their asses while i sit on the sidelines and laugh at the poor souls. Well guess thats fate. So dont you dare laugh at me........hehehehe......I have been attending classes just because i have sworn i will do well in my tybcom. I will not screw it up like my 12th. Recap- I had made it point I didnt score good in my 12th because i didnt want my parents acting as crappy as they did after my tenth result. They forced me to join MCC. One might be thinking whether i am over exaggerating. But I really did hate my Dad acting as dumb as he did in putting me in this hell hole of a college like MCC. Well, its been 5 years, learnt alot to deal with different kind of individuals.... MCC still sucks in my book. But honestly, life has been a rollercoaster of a ride. I dont know whether to laugh or cry thinking about all my misadventures.....but honestly, I have become better after being in college. I feel sad that all my friends will moving their respective different ways after the final exams..... i really wish time stood still..... but i guess we have our destinies to fulfill... mine i am not sure as yet, but i know i have many individuals to meet, places to see, things to know before i close the curtain on my life.....so to fulfill my ambition, its time to hit the books and study........peace!!!!

Dont have change..........

Its been awhile........i really am lost in thought now a days.......about the present situation......wondering where my life is heading........hehe, the stressfulness of taking a decision really pisses me off so i usually leave the decision making to my friends.....well my dilemma is that whether i should be living a life for myself or for others.....I believe one lives for oneself but people chastise me saying that we should be living for others and not oneself. Hmmm, i am not convinced, self preservation is the primal desire of every individual.... if one doesnt have the desire I can confidently call their mental state as madness.... Anyways what right does a society have in judging an individual lifestyle? I believe the idea of society itself is Crap. One might argue that society is the most essential part of a human life.... I strongly disagree. Let me put an example, consider this scenario, every human being on the planet is given a gun with unlimited bullets, and he or she has been given the right to kill anyone whomsoever makes them angry....trust me wen i say this, the killing will start till there remains just one individual..... Thus, human beings are anti social....... Coming back to the idea of society, who makes the rules in a "Society". The strongest or richest which are a minority in the society basically forms the rules of the society which the poorest or the weakest have to abide by.......failing to do so, is either punished by violence or banishment from the society..... isnt the world then ruled by thugs??? One might say we cannot do anything! I agree!!! People have always lived in fear.... These kind of people are found everywhere running to work, colleges, schools etc etc. I dont blame them.... But the funny part is people who refused to be afraid are the ones who are always banished from society or eyed with suspicion or even been victimised by unrational violence..... I feel empathy for such individuals....... The world refuses one to be free..... I refuse to be a part of such a world...... where violence is unpunished and immorality rewarded..... I will live for myself and have standards for myself....... If someone tries attack me, i will not take it lying down....... I will fight back..... Society be damned..... N if they pester me, My reply to them will be- Dont have change, go away.........